Singer Lady Gaga said she used to be psychologically unstable, hating herself, not liking the life of a celebrity.

Lady Gaga guested on CBS ‘s talk show on September 20, discussing the dark side of star life. The singer confessed to thinking about suicide many times after becoming famous. She cut herself in the flesh, letting everyone know she was in trouble. Lady Gaga had to live under the supervision of relatives for several years because her family feared she would do something foolish. “I want them to see that wound, to know I’m in pain. Because I don’t think they can see the invisible psychological problems,” Gaga said.

Lady Gaga at the VMAs . PH๏τo: MTV.

She said she once looked at the piano and blamed her musical career for making her a star. “You ruined my life. You made Lady Gaga, my biggest enemy. I gave up. I hate celebrity life, feeling exhausted and exhausted,” the singer said. When out, Gaga always feels bothered. She can’t go to the supermarket, have dinner with her family like a normal person.

However, the singer said that he used music to tell the pain of the past. The new album Chromatica has many songs like Rain On Me, 911 and 1000 Doves revolving around the topic of mental health.

On September 18, she released the music video for the song 911 , based on her experiences with psychological problems. The video tells the moment the main character (Gaga) is saved from the ᴅᴇᴀᴅ after an accident. In her dying moment, she explores a dream world. “This short has a personal meaning to me. It’s about how reality and dreams can turn us and those around us into heroes.” she said.

Lady Gaga, born in 1986, is a famous American singer. She is known for hits like Bad Romance, Telephone, Born This Way… Last year, the singer won an Oscar for the song Shallow in A Star is Born . In the past, Gaga has repeatedly confessed to having problems with psychology and celebrity life.